We have a house!!

DH found us a house!! Well, ok, it's a 2bedroom, 1.5bath trailer, but it's at the right price and in a year we'll own it and only have to pay rent on the lot. The bad news is that DH can't even get into it until the 24th of this month and then it needs some repairs before the kids and I can move in. So we're looking at probably a good 6-7wks before we get to move there. I'm trying not to get my hopes up, and at the same time, sort of surprised at how NOT up they are. REally, 6wks is not long at all. I still have plenty to pack, but at the same time, it seems soooo far away. And anythign could happen between now and then. What if DH isn't able to make the repairs that he needs to make? What if he doesn't even get the house? A million things could wrong between now and then. But a million things could go right too.

What actually bothers me the most, is that I'll be here at the 1yr anniversary of DH leaving us. The thought is still so painful, and I didn't want to have to be alone still when that came around. Yes, we're technically together and just living in different places due to circumstances, but I'll still be here, by myself on that day. And it's goign to be hard. It's already hard. Pray that I get through this next month and half without too much emotional pain.