Just randomness

So we had church today. Actually, we fellowship with a couple other families at our homes (well, not my home, but the rest of htem take turns hosting at their homes). I love it for so many reasons. I actually had a regular church I was going to, my mom would go with us, but when she got busy on weekends I couldn't go b/c I don't put the kids in Sunday School or the nursery or anything and handling all three by myself was not fun. So about the time my mom started not being able to make it I began worshipping with these families. It's so great b/c I can hand the baby to either another parent or one of hte teenagers so I can take care of the other kids. And if one of them is acting up, I know I'm not distracting anybody b/c they're all used to and have the same issues :) Also, the main families are all quiverful. One family has 8 kids (though 2 are doing missions right now so I haven't met them), one has 6 or 7 I think, and the other has 5, with the youngest being only 3 months. I love being around large families since I want one of my own. And of course, I love going b/c they're all like me. They have mostly a Church of Christ background, they wear skirts and the women have long hair and our overall just very Godly women to be around. I feel so much inspiration and fellowship when I'm with them. I will miss them greatly when we move to be with DH. I'm hopeful we'll be able to find a homechurch we like after we move, but it's so hard to find one, they don't exactly advertise, yk? I'm hoping to join a local homeschool group after we move and maybe somebody there can hook us up.

Sometimes it's hard though goign to worship. There's one thing that's really bittersweet. Recall the family of 5, with a 3 month old baby. The DH is only a little older than my DH and reminds me a lot of him personality wise. He's always got one of the boys in his lap (their younger 2 boys are the same age as mine), or he's holding the baby (a girl only a few months younger than mine) and it's just bittersweet to watch. I think of all the things htat DH is missing. He's missed half of our daughter's first year. He missed watching our 2yo learn to talk, he's missing our 4yo learn to read. He's been gone for 9 months. Do you know how much children age in 9 months? Our daughter is absolutly fascinated when she's around men. She just stares and stares. But what can I expect, she doesn't see them very often. I pray she gets to know DH before she hits any kind of stranger anxiety.

I"m sure I had more to post, but do you think I remember any of it now? Guess that will have to work.